Life with Phobia : Preston Market

Go to Preston market and stand an aisle away from the fish market / watch people select from the piles of dead fish on ice / wonder how long it’ll take the trigger to come / from this distance it’s just piles of shimmering grey, white, and black / then a worker takes a fish by the base of the tail / a customer has selected this one for purchase / I see it rise in the air / and panic sets in / it starts in my abdomen and quickly moves into my stomach / I need to get out right now / before I become trapped / I go to the parking lot to feel into it / hypervigilant now but this is what I need to do / I want to cry I want to cry / pathetic useless replaceable insignificant 

Life with PhobiaNic Alea