Life with Phobia: Today
In a Teal video, all of a sudden goldfish swimming. I laugh instead of panic. I am so hyper aware of my reaction.
In compiling poetry submissions, I open a journals website and there are three very detailed illustrations of fish. I say, “oh wow” out loud and feel the panic in my abdomen. I don’t click off the page right away but am again hyper aware of the split screen: fish on one side, submission guidelines on the other.